Dear Sirs,
I am looking at "my way" I did :) I conclude it was a mistake.. :), real stupid mistake :)...maybe in some sense it was a mood of mad man to take Nobel prize or the like.. Many books, followers, monuments (like Lenin: ) ), etc. should be after my death:):) Maybe I thought about the like but now I do not remember.
Why (what moods, reasons) do people study physics seriously deeply and all day long? What real mood moves them? It seems to me not a curiosity.. Please be true.. :)