Nine years ago, I experienced a mental disorder. I was experiencing symptoms of neurosis, schizophrenia, and bipolar affective disorder. One flowed into another.I did not take pills and I do not need psychiatric help, because I understand the mechanism of schizophrenia and the way it is treated (in my case). I went to study in the magistracy with the goal in the future to describe this mechanism in scientific work.But my scientific leader decided that these ideas were not valuable enough, and I was expelled before the first exam. And now I'm experiencing internal resistance and frustration about the further study of psychology in order to develop a method of treating schizophrenia. And I have a few questions. Who needs it? Who is ready to support me in my search? Who wants to understand what I see in the mechanism of schizophrenia?