I had experience when I followed a textbook grant to the Indonesian government in 2011, a book I wrote for 11 months, I was full of confidence at that time, and it turned out FAILED. I felt devastated for one year and never wanted to write again, in 2012 I tried again to submit a grant, along with nine friends, after the announcement of one month came out, and the result was only me who succeeded. fail is beautiful. Actual failure is wisdom. thanks you all.