This question makes no sense because it is based on assumptions that are not scientifically valid. The first of them, (and that starting from a theological process that I do not feel very comfortable proposing) assume that there is a God who determines that you deserve to suffer for your actions during your life time. Buddhists believe in karma, but no karma is controlled by any god. Not even in that theological sense does the assumption hold up. Second. You don't get suffering because you deserve it as such. One basically suffers from a mixture of factors including, and not excluding others, his attachment and the circumstances he faces and the way in which he faces them. And finally, the worst thing that can happen to you is not death, there are many things much worse than it, to the point that death is something that many people throughout history, and this is very well documented, ask for it and ask for it. Be grateful as long as a certain circumstance, feeling or situation ends.